This feeling sucks big time.
And i think im getting damn irritated by it.
It’s wasting my time, because nothing is fix.
I was wrong about it, and i never thought it would be so wrong.
I thought my hypothesis was flawless, but i am wrong.
Rather than WHITE, it was black.

I REALLY HATE THIS FEELING.
Its MAJOR SHIT.

SBW: 17th -24th Jan’10
Seriously F this week.

SITUATION 1
As you are walking down  busy street like orchard, i bet you would have encounter such situation at least once and would have commented sth like this – Couples who are not compatible at all , in the sense that how did that ugly guy get hooked on such a gorgeous girl? Is that girl Blind or what? What has the world become?

SITUATION 2
You are giving everything you have got, spending every single minute, using every drip of your brain juice to come up with ideas, using every last bit of energy. You are doing almost every single thing possible to grab hold of her heart, or at least make notice ur existence. However, the next minute you know,  she got hooked up with this hopeless boy in your school, or maybe your hardcore rival/enemy in school.
So, whats so bad about you that she chose him over you? Even though, base on facts you would be smarter, much more caring and would have a better future than that awful guy. Base on facts, he is vulgar, screwed up and ugly. She definitely deserve someone better like you.  So whats wrong? Is she really blind? Whats wrong with the law of nature?

There is something i have discovered which might be the answer to both situation mentioned above. Girls are definitely some complicated creatures (Of course to them guy are some weirdos too). Probably you can blame it on fate if you believe in it. But what i realise is the fact that when a girl falls for a guy, she falls for his action. Too vague? Alright, let me explain:

1) I once asked girl A why did she like guy A, she replied “because he is really nice and sweet to me, his friend told me he changed alot for me.”
2) After sometime, girl B came up to me and told me she likes guy B, she said its the chemistry that they share and its the interaction which  made her felt that he is the one she is looking for. Guy B rides bike, drives car, do sky diving, has great sweet talking skills.
3) While studying in Mac, guy C saw girl C and decided to ask for her number. he then went up to girl C confidently and asked for her number. Since then, he had been asking her out, spending happy times together. And now, they have been together for about two years.

The law of nature is something really amazing.

There are a few contributing factors to a start of a relationship.

1. Fate – Right place, right time.. It was fate which allowed guy C to meet girl C.
2. Then followed by Action. If guy A did not do away with his bad habit which girl A dislike or tries his best grab hold of girl A’s heart. Girl A wouldnt give a shit about guy A.
3. Interaction (communication) - Be who you are, speak confidently. Girls definitely prefer someone who is confident. interaction definitely allow both of you to build up chemistry, something which u are able to feel for her (this is abit vague, but i guess u know what im driving at). *note* This is also one of the vital factors to maintain a good r/s.
4. ???? – Yes! Question marks! Its something which is cannot be define. something which only She can understand what she is thinking, or even she herself doesnt know why is this happening or why is she falling for him!

In the nutshell, it is the law of nature which brings both of them together. Too bad, if you dont have the luck to meet pretty girls, too bad you are unlucky to fall in love with  a complicated girl who is “blind”. Your chance will come, but when it comes make sure you give  everything you have got. Its the happiness that you are after, so dont lose it.

A well known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20 bill. In the room of 200, he asked. “Who would like this $20 bill?”

Hands started going up. He said, “I am going to give this $20 to one of you – but first, let me do this.”

He proceeded to crumple the 20 dollar note up. He then asked. “Who still wants it?” Still the hands were up in the air.

“Well,” he replied, “what if I do this?” He dropped it on theground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. “Now, who still wants it?”

Still the hands went into the air.

“My friends, you have all learned a very valuable lesson. Nomatter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless; but no matter what happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.

Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are stillpriceless to those who love you. The worth of our lives comes, not in what we do or who we know, but by …WHO WE ARE.

You are special – don’t ever forget it.”

Author Unknown.

I am doing good,
Nth has changed nor anything new has enter.
But then again, it seems so boring and dull.
Lets just see how things  go (:

Benny, BNC.

00:14

Okay, confusing stuff aside lets look at my days in TMC!
Apart from the workload i have, everything jus rocks. What more can u expect when u are having Xbox, tabletennis table, foosball(all in one cozy room) and while you are staying in, u get to slp in air conditioned room with super clean comfy bed! Cool yeah? *nods*
As for the workload, my upper study is clearing his leaves and off so soon that he is passing his 1 year of knowledge to me in just 1 week. Its seriously killing me. Sigh, but what to do…Being both Medical Board IC and Docu IC at the same time is just too insane. Oh well~

Takecare people,
Benzx. 0128

While at the back of my mind i thought it was seriously over, i mean, i have not been thinking about it for months, but yet just by looking at that “person” again reminds me of everything. Just by thinking about it now will make me depress, heart sinking and Soul wandering away. I wonder what is the next step that i would take.

Uh yes, i guess i gave up on her alr.
Lets just have a goodnight rest ya?:D

Nights peeps!
Benzx, 00.16

Yes, its NAVY. Cool eh? Haha, but guess what i cant swim really well.. or rather, i cant thread water. Training is gonna be tough, but definitely fun too. (: Apart from that, everything is still the same. Still doing the same old thing over the weekends. Sigh~ Haha, and stop calling me EMO BOY! Crap.. Everyone is calling me Emo boy now!

Anyway, its a bad Sunday for me. Booking in to NDU camp by 7pm~ with all my barang barang. Damn sian. Tsk!

PS: Jonny if u are reading this, prepare to endure the PAIN! To be frank with you, its really hell when the needle goes into ur skin. Haha, you can imagin how thick the needle is. 16 gauge

2months! My Leg is almost healed. Able to run and jump without much problem now. Sweet! Hmm apart from that, i guess there is nth new in my life. Still single, Still Hungry and like forever hungry, Still emo-ing over some nonsense. Ah, whatever.
Its a long weekend ahead! I Better enjoy it and make every second worth it!

I WANNA WATCH FIREWORKS!!!!!

tata~
BenzX’08 (0052)

.End of BSLC
.Doc found out that i have a diff length leg
.Shin Splint
.Flexible Flat foot
.Jonny and i are crazy over Honghong.LOL (or maybe its jus me) hah!
.Beng is psyco-ing me to play Restaurant City on facebook
.I think im contaminated with Shige’s staying at home “GERMS”
.Had been spending aot over the weekends
.Had been trying to figure out whats wrong with my mind and hers
.Eh pok Drink more water!

Man… Whatever it is I need to start doing sth productive.
Which i have not thought of. Maybe i would.
Soon.